Dreams, thoughts, postings

I can see the silver moon shining in the sky, thats cool, i'm starting to see again, i know its gonna be shining long after i die, long after you die, long after everyone dies, thi is progress, i can't escape from gravity, no one can

Still feel helpless, in my mind, I still need a place to go, thats where all my changes are, but thats not bad is it, can see the birds again, man, flying, flying across the sky, ok so i nicked a few licks from neil young there, but it illustrates progression, slow, i can still see shadows, plenty of shadows,

What were the clouds like when you were young, i remember long days, remembering them long hot days, blue skies, before the nightmare began, summer 1976, the skies were blue deep blue, beautiful, i can get back there now, couldn't, wouldn't or shouldn't, got over that hump, pardon the pun, don't know if its because surgeries only 3 weeks away

feel i can fight the slippery people, without falling on my face, slipping in the s**t life threw, the slippery people aint gonna win, got to stop acting crazy, going crazy, it aint good, its up to me, no one else, don't want to be bad as the slippery people, got to feel i'm all right, doing fine, made another week, and only three weeks till Mr Fender fixes me,

Take a look at me know, and take a look at me when i'm all ok, and tell me what you find, be honest, it won't leave me faceless, i shouldn't leave it up to you, silly things swirl round my head, i blamed the world, why, because i is young, i was young, felt it shouldn't be up to me, you put too much on young shoulders, but i'm getting over, need to get over it,

Dancing in the disco, bumper to bumper, love the disco, first became aware i was different whilst dancing in the disco, last year at junior school, dancing in the disco with my jumper off, wheres me jumper told me mum, she went balistic, i didn't know why my mum was so so angry, i was dancing at the disco, no jumper, so what, i was 10, why did that come back, that thought, why, i love the disco, dancing at the disco, never took me jumper of again,

i'm getting to a better place, i'm coming down the line, i need to get away from living just for the day, i need to get into better time, with your help, i'm doing the best i can, all my fears are rattling round me head, i'm complex, complicated, helpless, frightened, lonely, friendly, fearless and fearsome, mess up some times, mess up a lot, ashamed, feel the need to find, found shelter, disullusion, felt dissollusion for so long, didn't think i needed you, or anyone, realised i do, i need to find the shelter, think i found the shelter, sheltering in here, from my storm, i made the storm, i now realise that, the storm was man made, now i need to find out how to make the shelter, i try to be everyones elses shelter, its easy living in other peoples lives, means you don't have to live yours